Friday, April 21, 2006
During huahui today we saw the xiaopin jus do some final touch-up on their jus. And when I saw them getting all ready and being nervous and excited at the same time, I thought of Shangxue. I know it's too late to say this, but I still want to blog about it.
I thought of the many paijus we had in 2C, how the daoyans rushed down after their remedials. Though it was tiring, we still practised hard. Daoyans were always there for us. We changed script after script, always trying new stuff. I used to think that the daoyans were too fierce and expected too much from me. I used to think that I couldnt meet their expectations. But I was wrong about them. Df knew when to be stern and when to relax. She was the one who kept us on the beat, cause I was scared of her. I didnt feel closeless between us, because she was always so distant. But I realised today, if she had been lenient, i wouldnt have learnt what i know today. She was the one who guided me from being a dunno-anything to a know-something.
Hp was the one who encouraged us with her lolipops :D She was the less-fierce one, but still, she taught us a lot. She knew a lot, but she usually kept quieter during paijus, letting df and jov do the talking. But i know she still cared, a lot.
Jov was very busy with her own stuff, yet she put a lot of effort into the ju. She still was very nice and all.
On xiaopin, 23 April 2005 : We were so excited! I remember we even had chicken rice in the forum before setting off (: Jenny and I shared one packet! Daoyans gave us last min instructions and support. I felt really nervous. The ju went smoothly, but the cruel lights cut qians off while she was finishing her last sentences. Oh man, that was horrible. I didnt know how important the timing was. Then jov came backstage. Oh man her face was black. I exclaimed, JOV WO MEN CHAO SHI LE! She was very dao. Then it struck me. We were doomed. Then tears spilled out, I thought the daoyans would kill us. Then i saw dunno df or hp crying. Oh man, I felt quilty. Seriously. Then I was crying real badly. I remember, when I was walking out of the room to go back to school, jov took the towel i had slung on my shoulder as a prop to wipe my face. she said ' dont cry le, it's not you fault okay?' That really struck me. Despite being saddened that her last chance was ruined, she put up a strong front and was really sweet <3 That is something I would never forget. Df and Hp were really nice. Very. I felt the unity of our ju, but still. I guess it's all too late.
Tears rolled down. I couldnt stand it! I saw shangxue in the xiaopin jus. I thought I had let the daoyans down. I didnt treasure them when I could. Now when I see df and hp dao-ing other people, I feel sad. I just wish they could come back and dao me. Not that yi and myra and xwei are not good, just that df and hp hold memories I have of shangxue. I love you <3
Thank you Jenny, Joe, and Lays! ((: Especially Jenny, my tears were uncontrollable when we hugged. Thank you Ser, Siowyu, Shaorou and Anges! :D
18 June, Qihang 2006, here i come! :D Yi Myra Xwei Shaorou Anges ShuShien Ser Xiu
The fond memories, deep in my heart
It's a beautiful disguise.